Rainy day thoughts, “Looking back”

Today was the Maine Marathon and I had some friends taking part. I wished that I could have gone to cheer them on, but I am on call for the hospital for the next two weeks. It’s pouring buckets outside and I’m still sitting here in my jammies, sipping on a Starbucks Chai Latte, and thinking about how far I have actually come since January 1 of this year.
To recap, I started Jan 1st at 285 pounds. 
I signed up for Weight Watchers at work, and started my journey to better health. I started researching running, and read for many hours on the subject, prepping my mind to start up again after a 25 year hiatus. I finally decided that I was going to take a minimalist approach, mostly because when I ran in my Asics 2150’s, I would have ITB (IT Band) issues, and my ankle that I had surgery on, didn’t do well in those shoes. After many hours of research, I decided on the Kinvara 2’s.
I will tell you that when I started going to the University fitness center, I felt VERY self conscious and out of place amongst all those thin athletes there. I could barely walk the 1/10th mile track without having to sit down. I am serious. It was baaaaad. So many times I would think about running, but basically couldn’t remember how… I know that sounds stupid but I was so overweight that I felt like an elephant with every step, making the ground shake.
Eventually I worked my way up to 1/10th walk, then 2/10th, then 3/10 and before I knew it, I was walking a mile. I made a decision to wait on the running until I felt I had lost a good amount of weight, in order to minimize the chance that I would get injured again.  When I finally lost 25lbs or so, I started jogging a bit at a time. It was slow. It was NOT fun. I hated it, but in my mind I knew that I had to keep it up to be able to get back to where I was as a runner years ago. Now it’s September 30th and I feel like I have made a fair amount of progress. I have gone slowly and taken my time, listening to how my ankle felt along the way. A fellow blogger, PAVEMENT RUNNER said it this way, “It was a slow approach to this point. But I’ve loved the journey.” He was referring to the two 20 mile runs that he did this weekend. I had commented to him that I can’t wait till I can say I ran that far.  I in fact HAVE loved the journey. Every drop of sweat involved has been worth it all the way. Little by little I have mustered the courage to wear compression shorts without shorts on top. I bought some sports bras like everyone else wears. I run in skirts… I’m getting there, coming out of my comfort zone, little by little.
So far, I have run tons of 5K races this summer, most of them virtual runs. I have preferred to do those since the summer was pretty hectic with my dad passing away in June. These runs gave me incentive to run for a cause and keep moving through all of the stress I have gone through this past year. My longest run to date has been a half marathon, but I had to split it up a bit with a few breaks in-between. I have walked 15 miles at once on a weekend, and loved it all except for the blisters. My usual run is 4.8 miles around my neighborhood, lots of small hills included in that. I recently discovered that trail running is awesome! I didn’t know if my ankle would hold up, but so far there’s been no issues. I wish I had started running those at the beginning of the summer…
I am proud to say that I am a runner. I am not a fast runner, and that’s ok. I am slow, and steady, and enjoying my journey to fitness. I hope that I can inspire or help someone else to take this journey also, it is so worth the effort.  Thanks for listening to my rainy day rambles.. 
Love ya!

12 responses to “Rainy day thoughts, “Looking back””

  1. Darlene says:

    Keep up the good work. You are inspiring.

  2. Elvin Tan says:

    Congrats. I myself have taken up running in June. It’s still a journey and you’re a great inspiration for me.

    • Every day that you head out for a run, or that you exercise, is a day more of your life you’ve earned on the other end. This journey is hard but the rewards are unmeasurable! Take it day by day, you’ll get there, and I will too!

  3. Jeff Gallup says:

    Inspiring! Congrats.. and thanks for sharing your journey.. looking forward to hearing more 🙂


  4. Jen says:

    You are an inspiration. So proud of you. I do love the before and after shot. Keep this kind of post going!

  5. Dlc289 says:

    You look great and are an insiration. Keep up the hard work. You look fabulous and it shows.

  6. Dana says:

    Wow, looking great.